6 months.

Today, Saturday July 27th, marks 6 months since we broke up. That's half a year. That is such a large amount of time. And truly, it is bittersweet. Bitter because it makes me sad and I still don't go a day without missing us. But it is also a little sweet because we are now thisclose to being best friends and... I have made it this far. Emotionally, I have gone through so much but I am still here, head held high, stronger than ever. I mean, I still get sad. It happens quite often actually. Like yesterday at work, with all the roses for sale, I remembered last summer when you bought me some. And then I thought about how you probably bought Sena some and yeah that was rough. 

6 months ago, I had no idea that things would be the way they are now. It was really rough, to say the least. But I pulled through and things have gotten better. I had no idea what the next 6 months was going to bring, what life was going to throw at me.

I guess... I guess I just wish that we were moving closer to getting together. But you're in a relationship. And because of that, I know that we aren't going anywhere. And at this point, I can't wait for the day to come that we have a chance again and can work towards us again. I mean, yes, I still wish maybe some day was today, but even just us having a chance would be amazing. I want us so bad. I want to date my (almost :P) bestfriend. 

I guess we will just have to see what happens. I'm really curious about what all is going to happen in the next 6 months. Maybe by the end of it we will be dating? Who knows.

But there is one thing that hasn't changed, and never will. I love you :)