early blah

So I know that I am definitely thinking about this a little early, since it's still almost 2 months away, but I have pretty much no idea what to get Z for our anniversary. Seriously. I am failing at this. I mean I have a couple ideas that I think I want to do but both of them are small. And I dunno I want it to be big and special and all this so it's super hard to come up with some good things! Seriously! GAH! This isn't like Christmas where the gift doesn't have to be that special/meaningful. I think I am pretty dang set for Christmas. I just feel like this should be better but I don't really have anything that great yet. It sucks. And because we have already been going out for a long time, I've used up all the good ideas I've had already. Booooo. Like that picture book I did? So cute! And special! But I did that for Valentines. Kinda wish I would have thought to wait to do it til anniversary time. But oh well I'm still really glad I did that. I just wish I could come up with something that is just as good as that....... I'm kinda worried that I won't come up with anything good. I mean I have been thinking about this already for way longer than I would like to admit to and I still don't have much. So that makes me a little worried. But it's not time to panic yet, like at all. I'll save the panicking for when it's only a week away :P aka my birthday. Blah. Boys are hard to get gifts for. I feel like girls are a lot easier. BLAH