those days

do you ever wake up and then just automatically can tell that's it's going to be a bad day? like as soon as you are out of bed, you can feel a bad mood coming on? well that was me today. for most of the day, I was really on edge. it was bad. but luckily about midafternoon, I was able to get out of it. not really sure how it happened. in all honesty, Z it might have been your little story you told me. maybe it gave me hope that good things can happen :P I do kinda feel bad for being in a bad mood but it was one of those bad moods that you really just can't help. I will probably tell you this pretty soon Z, but imma say it in here too. I actually really liked it when you kept trying to get me to hug you. it might not have looked that way, but I did. it showed that you really care and wanted to make it better and it was actually pretty sweet :) I needed that after you and T and your whole forgetting something I had told y'all multiple times and then deciding y'all was gonna have a "date". Idk that hurt my feelings. like I know it was nothing but I already was thinking that I would probably rather hang out with y'all then go to the birthday party but I have to go and I know it will be fun but yeah. it was just like great. y'all wanted to hang out with me and I wanna hang out with y'all but I'm busy and now y'all will just spend "the whole day" with each other. thanks for that btw best friend. rub it in my face some more that you get to spend time with him and I can't. that sounded a lot more bitter than I really am but yeah. i'm not mad. it just kinda hurt a little bit and now I am going to be done ranting about sad things because it's just bringing me down again.