letting go

Letting go is.... what is it? For most people, it is probably the hardest thing they will ever have to do. Letting go. Letting go of people. It really kinda is this big bad thing isn't it? It's hard. It's scary. It's something you don't want to do but yet know that you have to. And it really is hard. So hard. Because we are humans. We have memories. Those memories serve as reminders to things that you really don't want to remember. But yet you have no choice to remember them. So you are stuck. Going in circles. Until something finally clicks and you start veering off unto a better path, a path of healing. I have had to try to let go of something... someone... in the past before. And it never really worked. Like one day, I would be pretty much completely fine with it and knew I had to just live my life and go on and have fun. But then the next day, I would miss him so much and all I would be able to think about were all the wonderful memories. Sometimes, you have to let go simply because that person has passed away. Although, of course, there is nothing simple about letting go. I think that is really one of the things that terrifies me. Someone dying. Someone close to me dying. I don't even know how I would respond, react, handle it. Like at all. It would be a complete shock to my system and that is scary. I don't want to lose anyone. But I know that eventually it will happen and I just don't want it to. I don't know where all this is coming from. Well I mean I kinda do but not sure how I got so depressed with all that. I'm actually in a pretty good mood :)