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Have you ever like sat down and really thought about what other people think of you? Like not in a bad way, you just honestly are curious? Well I do. It just kinda like hmm I wonder what they think. I mean everyone has an idea of how they think of themselves but what do other people see? I mean really? And also there is so many things that people don't know that you know they would probably judge you on. Like for example, I've probably gone farther with a guy than most people would really think. All though who knows. Maybe everyone thinks Imma whore :P And one of those things that pretty much every girl/woman wonders is how pretty people, mostly guys, think you are. Like is that one person that tells you that you are beautiful just being nice and pretty much lying? Or is it something every one sees, but just doesn't comment on. And at least with myself, I catch glances of myself sometimes where I'll just be like woah. I'm pretty. And don't go thinking that I'm one of those girls that thinks they are ugly. Cuz I'm not. I just think I'm average. Just the average pretty-enough face. And as far as my actual body goes, I'm pretty happy with it. I could afford to lose 5 pounds and gain some muscle but I don't really mind. Again, I'm just average. Skinny enough. Well I take that back... most people would probably say that I'm skinny. Not super skinny, but skinny. And I'm short. And honestly, I've grown to love it. It is fun being short. Short is cute. And short means you can wear 5 inch heels for JOBS and not have to worry about being taller than your date(: short also means it is easy for someone to pick you up while hugging you. And now this has really gotten off my original topic :P but like do people think I'm annoying? Cuz I know there are a couple friends of mine that it's like, I love you but gurl you get annoying. And just yeah like my general personality in general. How much of it do they really see? How much do they really know about me? That's another thing. People talk about other people. Everyone does it and that's just how we are as humans. So what do they say about me? Do they even ever have that much to say? And now that is potentially getting a little deep so I'll just not go there :) and of course, what people say about you to your face, and what they actually are thinking about you is going to be different. That's just how it is. I dunno I've never really been that hard on myself and I've never stressed about what people think of me. I'm just curious. I mean yeah, I always do my make up and hair before school but that is as much for myself as it is for other people. Like I want to look good for myself. And part of it is just that that is the normal things for girls to do and for us to feel accepted. And that sounded worse than how I meant it, I promise. And I wonder how my boyfriend sees me. Like I would honestly love to see myself through his eyes. He thinks I am so great. And I mean I am but it would still be nice. Especially to like be in his mind when he sees me. Know how much he checks me out :P I dunno there really isn't that much to wonder about with him. Because he usually tells me. Well this was probably enough for now and this is actually pretty long. I won't bore you anymore :)